AM I WORTH IT?

im at a show..
its really scary.
i came to see justin.
but i didnt even say hi to him. im scared.
im stuck here till 10.
i keep getting funny looks.
im wearing my new shirt.
i thought it was cute
guess not.
i keep getting really funny looks.
i want to go homee
but i cant.
my shirt is pink and blue.
every1 is wearing black.
they all look the same...like there all brothers and sisters.
its crazzy.
teddy would always say " yeh u and ur friends are all the same" with hollister and plces like that
wowsers, every1 here is all the same .....
every1 acts like were so differnt from each other.
were not that difffernt, they all follow the same trends..and we do too.
they all wear shirts that are too small for them..we do too lol.
ripped up pants, a lot of eye liner, batman shirts, studed belts, TITE ASS PANTS, head bends, short hair cuts, hair is like popping up. im not making fun of them? a lot of girls look extreamly cute. im just saying, i alwsys here tat we are all alike..well they are too.
jessie M. is really pretty.
no1 will talk to us.
lol.
ikik funny.
jeremy was emberssed when we sed hi.
oh yeh its me jessie and sam.
u cant see any1s face..there all like coverd by hair.
i miss my mom.

hmmm. bye

how many times do you have to lie to be concidered a lier
how many times do you have to steal to be concidered a theif
how many times do you have to be bitchy to be concidered a bitch
how many times do you have to forget to be concidered forgetful
how many times do you have to fail to be concidered a failure
how many times do you have to lose to be concidered a loser
how many times do you have to fuck someone to be cocideredslut
how many times do you have to party to be concidered a partier
how many times do you have to say no to be concidered prude
how many times do you have to dream to be conciderd a dreamer
how many times do you have to fall in love to be concidered a lover

hmmmpf.

anyways. schhool has been goooood.
this weekend was pretyt crazzzy.
lifes good.
i hate when ppl say " lifes over rated"
thats the dumbest thing i think i've ever heard.
life is most def. not over rated and if you acually thought that you wouldnt be writting it in your profile, or picking it as ur icon, you would be killing yorself..cuz if lifes sooo over rated then why be here. dumb dumb dumb. its not over rated, ur doing it for attention if you are daying that.

when a guy and girl break up it always seems like its the girl crying about being alione. or its the girl sitting at homme staring ath is pic. well ladies thats just gay. we can have fun with out guyss. why do we depend on them..and act like we cant live with out them.. well from years of experence...they're not that great.
hmmpf. mandie and molly have to be the coolest ppl that eve walked the planet. lol yess the last..like 2 monthes i think..we've gottin super duper close. idk what i'd do with outt themm.
but any who im outt

Today has has been amazing chilling with mandie and tess.
umm went to mcdonalds..met up with sum guys..went driving with them,
then we went bak to mandies and had a big girly partyt hingh ah.
nails facials..yehyeh it was tite.
then we rented SAW and ate cookie dough, hah, cute ikik.
then we sat on her comp. and listened to sad music
talking abuot our old boyfriends..that we miss,
AND SOME THAT WE DONT MISS.
wow,
lol i really miss him. i could never tell him that though. uk, i have to act strong. and its getting easier.
well acually its not, but sooner or later it has to right?
i guess im taking pictures with willie for the formal.. hes my " date" ? iguess pshh whatever lol.
taking pics with hims hould be cool. hes hott. they'll look good.
but idk in my mind soo many guys just dont compare to him.
and every1s like " whoa omg so and so is much hotter then himw hy do u stillc are"
but idkk itss like....ahh idk.
but it wont be like this foreverrr.
i hate when i say sumthing like " i miss him" to jessie errw hatever ingroup and every1 adoimaticaly thinks they now hta im talking about. its just like shhhhh. u have no idea what im saying and who im talking about.
ahhh ihaddd a brothherr onccccccceee whooo drowned innnna bathhhhh tubbb b44 hee everr learnedd to talkkk, not really but thats my favorite songb y bright eyes and i was just thinking of it.
any ways,
teddys comming to visit soon. like at the end of june. thats gonnabe amazingg.
i miss the kid so much. things arnt the way they use to be with us. but im ok with thatt.
wtf, im tired of all these chix dating older guys thinking there the shit. lol it just bothres me. the girls in our grade think there so cool to be with an guy. i mean 9thg raders are ok, but i wouldnt go farther. i dont wanna get used and i no there is a big chance of that.
any whoo,
tessa fell asleep so mea nd mandie are gonna go jump on her hehe.

QUICKLY, on a lighter note.....i have sooooooo much fun with my girls, so it makes up for the time i had with you. ..witch wasnt all that great.

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well to start im deleting some of my "friends" on this lj cuz i've been talking to mandie lately about stuff and i realized i have a lto to let ou of me. So im gonna stat with that now, and i'll delet ppl later. sorry if i delet you..:-/ i just really want to trust ppl with what im saying..uk.

ahhhh so tonightm andie asked me if i could go bak in time and change one thing, like my biggest regret what would it be. and i thought for like a long time. and at first it was " ending it with dillon" but im gald me and him arnt together now? so i guess thats not it. so then i thought " hmm maybe ending it wit teddy" but i neve would have met chad. lol so then i sed " meeting chad" but ik that i dont regret that. so really theres nothing i regret. i mean, a lot of things suck right now. wanting somthing and noing u cant get it and all, but i wouldnt re-do anything....bcuz even though i donth ave it the way i want it, someone else does. Even though i ended it with dill and i donth ave him, allie does, and allie gets to be with him. Even though i ended it with teddy and im not with him, all those other girls have a chance with him. to tell ya the truth idk what i did to fuck things up with me and chad. and i thought about it a lot. like a lot, lol. and i still dont no. so i dont have any regrets there. yes im mad/sad/dissapointed we didnt work out but i dont think i did anything. so really i have no regrets. and even if im not as happy as i use to be someone else is. allies prolly extreamly happy her and dillon are together. im sure the girls teddy i fucking right now are pretty happy. lmao and i garentee ppl from the falls justttt jumped wit joy when they found out about me and chad lmao. so if i cant make myself happy, thenat least other ppl can be.

im tiired of the 2 month shit.
im tired off seeing couple together.
i get so damn jelous.
i dont want to date, i dont want to hook up, i dont want to be single and have funn.
i've been having fun the last..pshh year. cuz me and chad wernt exsactly..a "serious couple",
Have you ever just got tired of all this party shit and just wanted to fall in love. When you've been in love once, you no its amazing and its all you want. so i almost wish i hadnt been in love in the past so i wouldnt want it so bad now. but everry guy i meet just wants a lil thing. no one wants what i do. or maybe they just dont want it with me? idk. maybe im the problem. i dont no. but i dont see me settleing down with a guy..for a while. the only one i like pshhhhhhhhhhhh im likle on the back of his mind. and im sooo muther fckinggg tired of ppl saying ohh you can do better then him. go out with a junoir or a sophmore. THEYYY DONTT GETT ITT. i dont want to!!!!!!!! im aware that there are alot hot older guys in 10 and 11th great, BUT THATS NOT WHAT I WANT SO AHHH.

im not sad when i thinbk about him. when i think about him i get hapyp. butt hen i realize im the last thing on his mind and thats whn it starts to hurt. maybe it wasnt ment to work. to differnt towns..ikik thats diffacult. i just dont see how oneday he can be saying " oh i like u so much" and now im like the last thing on his mind. i dont want to admitt it to myself but ik it just means that i never really ment anything to him. well lol im done i'll go about this later lol. but i have to go delet sum ppl on my list if im going to continue.
comment, with advise errrr maybe just comments? idk. lol <3

The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know I'm alive
But I feel like I've died

And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made
I try to keep warm but I just grow colder
I feel like I'm slipping away

After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I've cried my last
There'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain

My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I wonder why God let me walk through this place

And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how You've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames

Here and I am at the end of me (at the end of me)
Trying to hold to what I can't see
I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long
I cling to your promise there will be a dawn

that song is so awesome. It makes me realize life isnt over just cuz a boy. Girls can be so dramatic. i've herd from so many ppl " you can do better" and i always laughed and sed pshh no. But any girl can do better then a guy who changes there mind abot them every week! I can be sooo dramatic and its pathedic, i have amazinggg girls who i have so much fun with. I have amazing guy friends who will never screw me over. so why am i so upset/ pshhh.
Guys are so...ahh how do i explain it. There so extream, either they like u soo much or they NEVER WANT TO TALK TO YOU AGIAN or how he says " good by forever" lol
advise-stop being so serious.
Krystine made me realize hesn othing special. NONE OF THEM ARE.
being special isnt being super hot or super funny.
its just have respect and acually careing about ur girlfriend, or EX girlfriend.
so we dont work out? oh well, if you ever cared about me you'd still care and act like it. instead ur an ass about everything and act like ur to good for me.
no, i dont want u back! i want you to act ur age when things end instead of being all bitchy act like u care! You cant go from LLiking and caring about me so much oneday, then totally never wanting to see me agian. thats pathedic, its pretty funny too :-).
I've takin allllll of ur shit. and for one boy, thats alotta damn shit.
- good bye forever
-i liked my EX the whole time we went out
- GOOD BYE FOREVER! ( lmao get over it)
- BABY I TURNED HER DOWN I WANT TO WORK THINGS OUT,
AND THEY SAY GIRLS ARE SUPPOSE TO BE CONFUSING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lmao. whia im talkin alotta shit huh? oh well, its helpin me get over it.
but any whos, im realll scared about this whole boy thing. I've been hanging out with sophmore junoirs guys a lil, and yes they can be really hott BUT THATS NOT WHAT I WANTTTTTTTTTTT. they just want some, and i wanna make sure i dont get screwed over in that area. so im stick with 8th grader and freshman, i dont want a fuck buddy, i want to fall in love
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ahh i hate him, and like him at the same time.
its crazy. idk why its like this.
ik i dont make sence saying " i hate him but like him",
but uhhhhhhhh i dont no how to explain it.
and even if i tried i dont think any would get it.
idk why i care so much about him.
aggh and i hate when guys say " well just stop likeing me then, just forget about me" WTF ITS NOT LIKE ITS UP TO ME! it's not like i want to like him, its not like i wanna think about him all the time. pshhhh thats the last thing i want, but i cant help it. i cant just stop likeing sum1 out of nowhere.

"i like u, i just dont like hanging out with u"
how the fuk does that work?!?!?!!?!?
okok it wasnt his exsact words, but icant take a hint.
boys are dumb.

whoaaa
life has been great lately.
i hung out with sarah, krystine, ricki, and mandie last night.
TONSS OFF FUNN. we went out to eat, then we went shopping.
lmao i havent had that much fun in a while.
i never pictured me hanging out with sarah and krsytine, but whoaa it was so much fun, and i love dem girlz ta death.
any ways,
i got ditched by chad agian on friday. only now its not really getting mre mad, its just funny. watta funny kid. at the beginning of the week its " Jamie we'll hang out friday night all night, just us to i promise"... then the week goes on : " acually i am committed to go to this thing...a party" lmao. ohh welll!
my friday couldnt have been betterr. i have soccer in a lil.
im suppose to hang out with chad tonight, lmao but wha are the chances of that one?
who nos , well okay i gonna go get ready for soccer.
<33!!!!!!!

so i just realized i have way to maybe ppl on my friends list. and sum need to go. cuz i cant write what i want anymore...

i'll delet some later.

drama queen doesnt even explain it.
i assume things and it needs to stop.
im being pessamistic over nothing?
im thinking you dont care, even though
you havent done anything to make me think that.
i think i've just been annoyed cuz i just turned down a reationship wit a guy that USE to make me so happy ( dont get me wrong i dont like him) and i did it for him, and im scared he'll change his mind.
hes known to do that.
pitty...fuk no.
re asurence....YES PLEASSSSSE.

okok the kelly clarkson cd is really sad lol. like woww

i was in a happy moooooodd about 15 minutes ago.
how did this happen. pshhh.

i found an old cd.

coldplay.

i've listened too the scienctest about 6 times. hmmmpf.
it gots me thinkin.

i look at my friends and other girls there reationships with other guys.
and they always seem to work out perfectly. Like theres not a care in the world.

for the last maybe 3 years been a realtionsipp didnt work out i'd blame the guy.
its always easier. less stress. more swleep.

But when i see my old b.fs working out so well with other girls it gets me kinda thinkin. maybe im the problem. Maybe im the one who needs to be fixed.

alright, nobody said it would easy
but at the same time, its not suppose to be this hard is it...

I dont know anymore.
i know hes worth it.

but i know i'm not.

i dont know no anymore,
i use to think if it was ment it some how it will work out
but during the last few weeks i've realized its not gonna work if we dont try to make it and put effort and time to it.
but then agian i dont want to keep pushing and working towrds somthing if theres no chance that it will work out.
Butttttttt we only live once so why be so serious, and be stuck on one person, we should be living and having fun.
butttt whats the point of living if theres no one to live for.
but we should only find happieness in a boy, thats pathedic,
but when im sad its..or he is the only thing i think about.
But! why should i care why should i care if he doesnt care
butt you cant just decide not to care about sum1 just bcuz they dont care about you.
butt what if two ppl are just on difernt levels, one wants to have a fun realtionship, and the other wants to be serious
but what if u decide not to work out just bcuz you have differnt ideas of a raeltionship, then years later you'll think bak and be like " HMM i wonder wht could have happend with us"
wht if he thinks ur obsessive, witch im not i was just sad pshhhh.
what if he has said like really mean totally rudde and un called for things to you and it hurt soo much, but then he wants to work it out. I no i want to cuz i no i like him. but i dont no if i can be with a guy that meaning tries to hurt me.
And what if he doesnt tust you cuz stupid ppl make things up? i mean you no that you would never cheat on him. but you also no he'll never trust you, and a raeltionship is nothing with out trust.
i dontt no why i am doing this,
it shouldj ust be " i like him." " he likes me" ( i hope), so lets just try to make things work.
and thats all good buttt i never see him and if he cant trust me then they'll be a lot of fighting and asuming of things.
i dont even have a bike.
oshh what kid doesnt have a bike?
i got a really neat shirt from the concer last night.
he says he doesnt like her, but he just got done telling her that hes liked her since they broke up, and never stopped.
meaning he liked her when we were going out.
whoa this is the 8th time i've listened tot his dang song,
i tell ya, if you can down load songs, down load it
it'll get you thinking,
witch might not be a good thing,
bcuz then you'll think twise on things yout thought you already new.
not saying that im thinking twise. ik i like him. and ik i want to be with him.
but then why ist his so hard.
i dont see how i cant have a bike. every has a bike.
and idc if its bad witch im sure it is, but im not like any of the other girls he nos or liked.
and i dont think hes ready for change.
and i am change, lett meee telll youuuuuuuuu
one straight week with me he'll be going crazy.
hah. damn i've been goin on and on for a while.
I dont no much abot him, and he most def. doesnt no ANYTHINGG about me,
i mean he nos the big things, but not the lil onces that dont matter.
but sometime the little things are the ones that matter the most.
i am sick at least twise a month.
i cant muiltply with out using my fingers
same with add. hahh.
i am afraid of roller coasters.
pshh i just saw sum lil kid riding his bike,
im jelous.
vanellia icecream is gross.
cherry pie is yummy.
love is so over rated.
mouloin Rouge is an amazing movie.
a picture is worth A thousand lies.
i am learning how to be indapendent and i am doing an amazing job.
i have a lot of friends that rock hard core.
i have 3 that i can trust my life with.
gosh hes so cute. My favorite paart about him use to be he was so nice, like not like the others. Always says hes sorry for little things. butt he said some super mean things the other day and now i feel dumb fro ever thinking he was differnt.
all guys are the same.
i likle him.
im getting a lotta shit from the guys in my grade. they dont like him.
they dont even no him. when im ention himt hey just roll there eyes.
so i've lost aalott good raetionships i had with guys in my grade.
they think im acting like im " to cool" for them, just bcuz i went out with him.
im ready to move bak to florida.
kyle is so awesome.
i am a strong indapenent women and i dontneeda man to complete me.
she told him, she'd rather fix her make up, then fix whats going on.
that made me laugh.
massacre in fall: you never do anything wrong
massacre in fall: psh your fucking perfect jamie
that made me laugh too.
jeremy is so nice to me. i'll never understand why,.
im a bitch.
hes wonderful.
im a lot weaker then i seem.
my family is at church and im sittin on the computer.
i feel a lil bit bad.
my dad is in findland. hes been there way to long. his stupid work sends him places like every1 oth week. me and my mom can be really close, but at the same time we can fight for like....hours. i dont get why she has to be so diffacult.
oo i've changed songs, realient K..
i have the spelling evel of a fucking fourth grader.
some one ought to help me with that.
i met him thro a live journal.
if u ask me, thats pathtedic. lmmaoo kindaa funnnnyyy.
i cold go like this all dayyy justt writtin whatever pops in muh mind.
i want to ride my bicycle!!!! i want tooo ridee my bike. oh wait NVM I DONTT HAVE A BIKE!.
i really ant to go to the Zoo.
my icon is about sam. everyone keeps askin me that.
yes, samantha rose patti.
i got pics bak from floirda. hah i am most def. not posting them.
how do really fat ppl fit in planes.
i got stepped on yesterday.
we dont have a lot in commen,
but we both agree that i have an attention span of a two year old.
my momma agreed with that 1 too.
im workin on it.
any guy that would pay 10 or 15 dollas to feel a girl up is crazzzzzzy.
i miss him.
i dont no what i miss more,
the way he hates me oneday, then likes me the other
or the way he says he cant stand me, and cant stand liars annd yet hes always the first person to IM me.
i want to be mad at him, cuz what he sed hurt.
butttt i ccanttttt beeeee.
golly, i am pathedic lol.
i think i should go sleep now huhhhh.
my hand hurts from typin.
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I'm at a party type thing and im sitting on the computer while everyones playing pocker and running around. I dont wanna seem so emo but i just dont feel like hainging out with them. i feel ant-social, im not meaning to. I came home on the bus with kyle and it was just me him and nick and it was awesome fun, then around 6:30 ciara tessa sam and john came. Kyle acts differnt around sam.  Cuz he really likes her. But is it wierd that sometime i have more fun with guys ( just friends) then i do with girls. Some girls can be soo annoying. not saying my friends are cuz i love them to death. but ahhhh  like they got a lil water splashed on them in the hot tub and they fucking flip. its like deal, its just water wtf. but michelle just got here ( yay). Yeah. Sometimes it just seems like i dont fit in  with everyone.i do good with like 2 or 3 other friends but when i get with a big group it gets wierd.

 

I've always been like this, only normally i ccould talk to someone about it, that why i think i miss having a boyfriend. I miss being able to turn to him when im lonely/sad for no reason. but really who sitts and writes in there lj at a party!?  i wanna go cuddle with someone on the couch. hah. boyfriends are wonderful. Dan Jeff and John might come pick me up and take me to dans, but i dont no. yeahh

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

everyone says being single is suppose to be to be so awesome. And its suppose to make you feel all free to have fun. well the only thing i feel is lonely. pathedic but oh well. but i dont just want to go out with a guy to have a boyfriend. i want someone that i really like. But that juust hasnt been working out for me. No one likes me, idont like anyone. or i couldnt get anyone that i did like.

this is gay.

 

bye.

 

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im in a horrible mood. i havent updated thiss shit in forever. but im soo mad/sad/ whateveraewf
i thought i'd right.

i guess i jump from guy to guy and lead guys on??
hah wtf ever/
i fucking hate kms sooo much
i hate some of the girls at this school. they have there heafds stuck sooo fucking far up there ass they dont understand shit. its all about whos going out with who, and who likes who..and of course always the caTTY girl fights about who sed this and who sed that. ITSS LIKE SHUT THE FUCK UPPP. I'VE NEVER MET SO MANY PEOPLE WHO DONT HAVE LIFES. like they go out of there way to watch me and what i do, so they can go behind my back and talk about how i act and how well they no me. WELL FUCK THAT. when these girls get loder ther gonna ahve a fucking rude awakening nbot everything is about what she wore today and if it matched, or who the cutest couple is.
AHAHFI WANNA SMACKKKKKK SUM1 SO FUCKING HARD RIGHT NOW this is un-belieable.

god damnitt so fucking dumb girlllllllllllllllllllllllllls

okay okayy.
i am sick.
my throat hurts..it still hurts!!! my strep like never went away.
and i am having these weird pains in my tummy.
what the hell is wrong with me!??!?!

well tessa called and sed sheh as mono and i needa go gett teasted for it cuz we have a lot of phiscal contact...oh dear that sounded bad, hah we drink outta the same drinks and shit.

so i have an opiotment tomorow at 3:15. IF I END UP HAVBING MONO....JIMMY MIGHT HAVE IT TOO. hahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahhhhahahaahahahhaahahahahahahahahahahahhaahahah.
that is oh so funny. i hope the lil brat has it. hes evil. i left my ring at kyles..at the party on saturday, and he took it home and i called and asked if he saw it and he sed yeh he'll bring it to school. and now hes refusing to bring it! watat fucking jerk. wow im yummy hurts really bad.

i think i like kevin.

im always gonna love teddy.

but i think i like kevin.

even tho hes to years oolder.

oh well. oh yeh, kevin pool. hah yep. im outs. to sleep cuz im tired.

i think my last lj entry offended sum people.
just wanted to say sorry to michelle! i love you
swwetheart!<3<33

im to tired to make this friends only so whatever
and im to tired to press ritch text.

today had been fun. hung out with mandie and molly all day. but im in a real blah mood.

im in a really annoyed mood. and im hateing a lot of things ritte now. sorry if any of these affend you. but oh well

i hate kms.
i hate that people would paY 60 dollars for a pair of ripped jeans.
i hate when peole take two sips of an acholhic drink, then strut around acting all drunk. then the next day be like " AHH MY GOD I WAS SOOO DRUNK".
i hate when people step into a convo and axt like they no shit when they dont.
i hate when people tell me what to and not to write in my lj.
i hate when people make fun of the used.
i hate my parents.
i hate when you IM sum1 and for the whole conversation ThEy TaLk LiKe ThIs. how the hell can sum1 do that for a whole convo...can u say get a life?
i hate when sum1 IM me and says hey whats up. then stops talking.
i hate when kayla wears her green day shirt, when she only nos two songs by the damn band.
i hate at th social/dance when 12 step came on, allie, sarah,lisa, kayla, and michelle just pushed everyone to the side and started doing there varity show dance, looking like the owned the place N all. They most likely wont get into the varity show with that dance. witch is kinda funny that they worked so hard. but the dance is...umm skanky?
i hate the way michelle and kelly are obsessed with willie john and jeff and dan and them. like there the coolest guys ever. and always talk about them.
WHO WOULD FUCKING PAY 60 DOLLARS FOR PANTS THAT ARE ALRRADY RIPPED, AND THAT EVERY1 ELSE ALREADY HAS.
i hate when sum1 invites u to a chat..so u go..and its totaly gay and everyones just like blahhh wtfgjghghjhgjghjhg.
i hate when people tell me im rong and i no im right
i hate when girls give me bitchy looks for no reasson. just to be bitchy. cuz girls are bitchy.
i hate when u break up with sum1 its all akward and shit.
i hate the way teddy hadda move to Virginia
i hate when your trying to talk to a guy and they say sumthing stupid like " SHOW ME UR TITS"
i hate you ask sum1 somthing, and they say sumthing bak..and you no there lieing. but u cant just be like " shut up ur lieing u fucking lier".
i hate when people say " how are you" when they really could care less. i say how are you, yeah. but i care.
i hate when people comment anmouysly in my lj. fuckers
i hate when people IM u and say how sad they are just so u can make them feel better.
i hate when people are like " EWW IM UGLY" when they no there not.
i hate when people dont eat around sum people cuz they dont wanna seem fat or whatever

yeah.whatever

jimmy is a   good guy. i mean i like him. but holy i cant take it anymore!!!!!!!~!~!~!~! i admitt, i like to flirt, what girl doesnt? anyways, im use to flirting wit everyone, but like now everyones scared of me.

like today blake got like super close and said somthing really sweet, then was like " i'd kiss  you right now but jimmy would kick my ass"

and jordan wont hug me anymore, either will tyler! there all scared that jimmy will beat them up.  AHHHHH THAT IS SOOO NOT COOL. and yeah i guess jiimmy being like the srongest guy in  our grade is a plus, but its not! he wont even beat up the guys i ask him to..only the ones " he wants to". how gay huh?

jimmys....blahhhhh

 

this whole thing is....blahhhhhh

ehhh whateverr.

maybe we'lll break up....i dont no if i wanna dump him.

 

 

ohh blahh

im so tired of all these anonmoys (or how ever the hell you spell it) comments. i'm in the mood to shoot someone.

anyways, this is my new lj, friends only.  COMMENT AND BE ADDED .dont comment  if you dont care about what i have to say and your just gonna bitch.

and dont comment just to sympathize. i dont need sympathy, advise? yeah!. no sympthay, im a big girl.

Im still keeping my other livejournal ( Drunk_on_tears), but thats just saying about my day and what i did........This   ones more of my  feelings. and i warn you, might be a bit emo :-/. I prolly wont write in here as much. unless im upset, or confused. I'm tired of having my feelings out in the open,

so COMMENT AND BE ADDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!